i really wish..

i really wish i could have more good and exciting moments instead of always venting about the shittiness in my life! seriously i once was a very happy person enjoying life and friends and my husband... i just think this place has taken that away i have lost me so losing me= losing my happiness??i wonder if that makes sense... i just want the stress in my life to be not so bad, i realize with a deployment around the corner its kinda hard, and a move home go back to my parents home but i guess it could be worse? ugh so to anyone who followers or just reads my blog sorry they are so depressing i just am disliking life in hawaii its really not my paradise and the people i have met have truely made it even worse! thankfully soon i will be able to be around people i love and i cant wait! happiness to come promise!! and if u want i will probably write more in my other blog during the deployment so check it out if u want :)