yup so yesterday thought we were okay, not the best but we werent so horrible that we could atleast still sleep in the same bed...
so as the clock hit midnite the hubs said he wanted a divorce... so on monday he is supposely going to jag... not sure what i will do or what will happen but i guess i wont need my deployment blog
ya so i am completely crushed... very depressed... advoiding calls, texts, just friends in general... people usually blame me, guess i am just a horrible wife... i just wish someone would understand
basically we dont agree about wow, skyping with women whether their married or not but playing with them and talking on skype is inapprioate to me but other people (since they know the girl) think i am crazy... then there is the whoel shitty situation with his father who only calls/texts/emails him when he wants soemthing, basically when its convient for him to consider him as a son... but what do i know!
i just dont know i guess it just wasnt meant to be and everyone was right u cant marry someone u barely know it will end in divorce...or maybe it didnt work cause i feel trapped and lonely and have no one to talk to!! i just need support and dont have it at all, even the "friends" i have think i am over reacting when i have any feelings of insecurity...
i dont know gonna get some sleep or try.. tomorrow is another day of silence and fighting... he does leave soon for a month but who knows if i will still be here or be his wife... i will try to keep anyone who reads this updated... please pray i can survive this cause my ptsd isnt helping (maybe i will explain another time, long story)
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