yup thats right me... well i feel that way... at the park the other day we were having a fun time with 3 of her new playmates (finally kids close to her age) and enjoying some snacks... and my poor little monkey fell backwards off the bench :( she is fine just a little bump but i was completely crushed... i know kinds fall and bump things but still... this was the day after she ran into the door frame and has a bruise on her forehead!! yup my kid got my clumpsiness (sp?)... poor kid!!
so that nite i came home my friends hubby checked her head after bathtime cause i just wasnt sure what i should be looking at plus my heart was crushed!! she is 100% fine back to normal running around and enjoyed the park today but still i felt terrible...
as i sat in my bed i wondered if i was only meant to have one? could i really handle another one?? i honestly feel like the worst mom ever right now and i guess if it was meant to be it would have happened but it didnt so maybe its not suppose to?? i would love her to have a playmate but i just dont know anymore :( after a few bumps within a few days i just feel horrible... i also dont really take her outside anymore here at home thanks to the crackhead neighbor but she has been not home all weekend, but it was also right after she got served well sorta they tried twice and now she has to pick it up! i am going to the head housing guy tomorrow i am just over having to change my life for someone who doesnt respect anyone!!
ugh well i havent slept much thanks to just everything that hs been going on with the hubs or whateva he is, the neighbor, and now my poor monkey :( but hopefully by the first week of february i will have some ideas, sleep, and happiness.... fingers crossed
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