so we are all together this christmas with just our families far away but we plan to skype so our monkey can see the family and they can see her open gifts... it went pretty good on her birthday but now she loves the web cam and is more talkative (babbling but still she loves it)!!
things seem to be ok i just dont know anymore... it still hurts me he was talking to a girl and has something in common with her that we dont have in common... one friend of mine said i was over reacting she knows the girl and i have nothing to worry about she is fat and unattractive, but i wasnt asking her to agree with me just understand that skyping with someone is not right and in my opinion is worse then porn... another friend who is about to divorce her husband, he use to do the same thing and then actually hooked up with the girl! yes i know this is extreme but there are girls out there who do shit that gets them attention and destroys marriages...
well i dont know if its the deployment approaching or not but we are both stressed and fighting alot more.. he has started helping more by letting me sleep in every once in awhile and spending more time with our monkey! its nice but i just sometimes feel like our love/feelings are different...
the third deployment seems to be more stressful the last two and then after this we start special forces training just a lot of stress for us but in the end their will be no debt (fingers crossed) and a place of our own for good...
so not sure if i will get on here before the new year so i wanted to put a quick resolution, something that i honestly dont do
1. make it thru this deployment stronger and in one piece (moving to my parents house)
2. become a better wife and mommy
3. baby #2?? (we are trying but he is gone next month then we only have a few more months till he is gone)
4. get out of debt
5. find happiness!!!
yes they are vague but they are things i really need to do i need to make myself better.. i know a new baby is more stress but my monkey needs a playmate and i loved being pregnant it made me feel good about myself, which lately seems hard...
so we will see and maybe i will come up with new/better ones... merry christmas, happy holidays, and best wishes for the new years!!
ps shutterfly cards i ordered got in one day!! seriously they were in production monday and got them the same day!! very impressed!! and got them sent out and everyone actually got them before christmas!!!
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