i remember why i cut every day from junior year till recently... now i remember why i felt like dying every day... now i know why i never come home.. what do you expect when i never answer my phone i never call i just stay far away and this is why you are a terrible person and i want nothing to do with you... i pray i would die every day and this may be the longest year and if i stay here i may not survive actual know i wont if i dont go and not be here...
i want nothing to do with you i helped you out for the last time you are nothing but a terrible person... putting me down saying i am a terrible parent when you are not even one never mind even close to being one!
cant tell the hubs how bad it is he has enough on his plate... guess i will just keep it in like always and hope i dont crash...
car will be here soon then off to north carolina even while the hubs is at airborne cause i cant stay here much longer i will hurt myself!
i realize none of this makes sense just kinda typing not really paying attention... all i know is i cant handle this anymore and i cant have my daughter here its just not good i cant let her see me in pain and wanting to die...
can things get any worse?!!?
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