so i have been doing most of my posting under the deployment blog since mostly i am talking about the deployment... i would like to choke some wives but i will ignore them...
anyways this is not what i am talking about in this post... i am hurting more for the fact that i lose a baby and everyone else around me is getting pregnant... seriously if one more person tells me they r pregnant i might end up in the loony bin! i know i should be happy and i am but at the same time i dont understand why i couldnt be pregnant? why did i lose the baby? am i a bad person? what if something happens to my hubby? what if we can never have another baby? i know i shouldnt think like that but i just cant help it and i have no one to talk to or trust...
why me? why cant i have one good thing? this past few months seem to get worse by the minute.... every decision i make is wrong and i am wrong and a terrible person :( ugh
well back to watching coming home cause i need a good cry
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