i realize yesterday i started a post then got a phone call so i never really finished it, but a friend needed me and also i got vent which was so needed!
i know my in-laws think what they are doing is no big deal and i know they are just trying to spend time with their granddaughter but sometimes they need to step back and realize i am her mother and i am right here if she needs to be put in line that is my job not that they have any rules! like my friend told me everything is just building up and i am stressed about a lot! depoyment is almost over even though the hubs is still going out on missions its not with the same group of guys its with other guys since no team is full! that stresses me since some of the guys he is with are shitbags! so now ontop of that i have to figure out flights and where we are staying, i also just found out the hubbys truck battery is dead so now we have to get a new battery on top of paying the lady 300$ cause she decided to fix his window (it needed it) and detail it (it may have needed it but she should not have done it without asking)! imo... anyways the hubby and i are also trying to figure out if we should stay more then 2 weeks (like till he has orders and the army flies us or leave before)... i told him i would rather stay and spend as much time together as a family... plus if i come back to his moms i may go insane i want my daughter on a schedule and it doesnt work when the in laws do things as they always have an eat so late! plus it drives me insane his sister doesnt have to work for a thing, things are just handed to her- she wants it she gets it!! i guess i was raised differently and i dont think anyone especially with how rude she is about it give her basically a brand new car! i dont know why it bothers me honestly but it does i dont think its right... she got her moms car orginally a few years back recently got into an accident and now told her mom she (her mom) needs to go buy a new car so she can have her car she has now! seriously what 19 yr old deserves that or even should be handed something like that! ugh my daughter would not be getting anything like that sorry but we will get her one car but after that she will pay for her own and did i mention that car will be a beater! (like a normal teen should have)! i guess they feel she is the baby and deserves certain things but i dont she is never gonna be independent imo but what do i know...
anyways today is another freezing day here in michigan... monkey and i are hanging out and playing while everyone else sleeps till noon, havent had one of those days in years! oh well... i keep getting migranes that dont seem to ever go away and i think its mostly the stress added with needing our own place so things can go the way they need to for a toddler to grow...
just wish i actual felt like they wanted me around not that they have to have me around to spend time with monkey...oh well guess its like and i willcontinue to just bite my tongue and sit here and just wait for the days to go by
ok well time to convience my toddler that mommy is tired of my little pony lets watch something else! or do somethign else anything else
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