ugh so this morning woke up to my brothers dog eating my sisters bathing suit (she wasnt happy when she found out)! he cant afford his dog but he has one which is fucked up! he barely can afford himself! so they we started fighting and he is fucking psycho and flipped out throwing me to the floor then i punched him in the face and he tried to break my wrists in front of my daughter! seriously how many fucking times do i need to ask someone to dont scream, yell, flip out, throw shit in front of my daughter! so i told my dad and mom he needs to go or next time i call the cops! they wont throw him out and continue supporting his fucking bullshit! so i am done!
then my dad tells me saturday he is using my car and taking my daughter to drop my mother... not asking if he could just he would only be gone to drop her off then be back... i know thats bullshit so i said no... now he is being a fucking asshole saying no one likes me and get out... realy u want me out fine then u will never seen ur grandchild again... i am done with bullshit i am done with u supporting a piece of shit and being a jerk just cause u dont get what u want... u want a nice car get a fucking job and buy one instead of piss of shits that u let ur son tear/destroy down! seriously!!
ugh why did i move home... i love having my friends and i thought being around family would be good but seriously evryother day its more bullshit i dont need! this deployment needs to end my hubby needs to come home and we need our place... i know moving home was the best i am not as depressed (obviously still somewhat) but i am not alone and hating life, as much...i just hope things getting better but i do have a trip coming up and monkeys birthday just gotta figure out what we are gonna do just sucks her daddy is not here :(
wish i could sleep this year away some days... some days i just wish i was stronger... just wish i didnt want to cry
i dont know... guess i just dont know
ps for r&r planning on vegas and i will be taking my keys with me and someone wont be using my car when i am gone if that means i park it at someone else house i will!
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