things have changed things have stayed the same...
still only one baby, now a new doggy so that makes 2 dogs... i am in school and so is monkey which she loves!
my depression is through the roof and no one notices or cares if they do... i am not use to people being so mean to me for honestly no reason at all would rather give them a reason! cause i love hearing cant believe anyone puts up with your crazy ass, or would even marry you! sorry i dont like shit on me or the smell of certain things... i just honestly want to give up... everyday i feel like i am just doing more harm then good, especially to my monkey... i wish i culd be a better mom, wife, person, friend............
i just dont know anymore somedays i just wish i wouldnt wake up maybe thats why i wont ever be given another baby cause i ama bad person? mom? maybe god doesnt want me to screw someone else up :(
i just dont know anymore and i have no one to talk to no one at all... hubby doesnt get it and has his own shit... friends well i just cant trust anyone :/ and seeing someone that means admitting i am messed up more then ever and i just dnt have time... i never have time for anything... i just kinda give up on me and make sure everyone else is good and i can pretend to be good
yup thats how it will have to be
