lately that just seems like a fairy tale :(
i have one friend tell me well fb it that she is engaged (i wish she didnt but to each their own)
other friends/family of course telling me they are pregnant (not fb official)... and yes i am happy for them till of course they ask if i am since they were hoping to be pregnant together... which i am not but hey thats my life
i just dont know anymore... and of course being back in hawaii i just want to cry and just getting depressed again... of course no one notices cause i hide it with a smile on my face... but the lack of sleep is catching up and the pain i have no idea where it came from is killing me and showing :(
just wish i could be a good wife and mommy... happy and someone people always wanted to be around... i definitely lost myself since being here and i dont know if i will ever find myself, not that my past job at the club hasnt just crushed who i was...
well i think its time to just go and see if i can get my daughter to bed someone loves to fight every chance she can
